Friends (1)

I've tried to have friends. It's never worked out.

At school, no one liked me. I don't know why exactly. I was probably too different. Children are merciless. Anyone who is different to a perceptible degree will be destroyed. Eventually I figured this out by the age of 10 or so. I managed to get people to tolerate me. Eventually.

Most of my 'friendships' have been with those who wanted to exploit me. Whether its for copying the answers to schoolwork or borrowing money, no one has ever wanted me for me. I've tried other people. The barriers of my difference are too great. I'm too much like hard work.

I've often wondered why people seek to have many friends. People are programmed to be social. Most of them. But why choose specific people to talk to about things? Common views, goals and interests? Who knows. I certainly don't. What I do know is that friendship is far less altruistic than most people want to believe.